Me too...terrified

Clare30 · New User Joined: 11 Oct 2009 Posts: 6

I have spent the past hour or so reading almost every post on this forum - what a wonderful, supportive group! I have never posted to any type of forum in the past, but I feel that it can only help me emotionally to post my concerns & fears here.

I am 43 yrs. old, married with six children (ages 16 down to 3). I have always been in excellent health with no problems. You can imagine my shock when my doctor wanted me to get an endometrial biopsy. I had an abnormal pap about two months ago, which was then followed by irregular bleeding between periods - this happened two months in a row. My doctor ordered a transvaginal ulrasound, which came back normal. When he suggested the biopsy, I nearly dropped the phone, but I did have it done almost a week ago (still waiting for results).

A good friend of mine, also in her forties, was diagnosed with endometrial cancer four years ago. She is doing great, and in complete remission, thank God. However, after speaking with her regarding her symptoms, I am now paralyzed with fear, since my experience so far with all this is the exact same as hers was. I have literally spent the entire day crying and imagining the worst, while all the time trying to hide my tears from my children (I haven't told them anything yet - I figure it's best to wait and see what the biopsy actually shows.)

Any advice, input, support, and most importantly - prayers - would be most welcome and most appreciated. Thank you.

Pixie · Regular Joined: 15 Sep 2009 Posts: 24

Oh Clare, welcome and I'm so sorry for what you are going through, as I've said a few times not knowing what's going on is harder than facing an actual diagnosis.

I'm also a new poster only being diagnosed last month but I know how much it helped me posting here and knowing that I'm not alone with my fears and tears ( Laughing

) I'm sure that Rhonda will also reply to your post, she has helped me so much in the last couple of weeks and seems like a wonderful caring person.

I hope your results come back with good news but if not, don't forget that endometrial cancer is curable when it's caught early.

All I can say is try not to worry, keep busy (with 6 kids that shouldn't be hard Laughing

) and let us know what is happening. Any fears or questions just post away.

Take care...
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Endometrial Adenocarcinoma FIGO stage 1b Diagnosed September 2009

rmaureen · Moderator Joined: 06 Oct 2005 Posts: 237

Hi Clare30

Welcome aboard. Clare30, I can well understand your fears. The threat of cancer is very difficult to contend with. Really the question becomes how to function in the waiting process, because inevitably, a person cannot help but worry some before getting their test results.

When I find myself excessively worrying, I pray, and I also say to myself 'I refuse to think of this stuff anymore'. I immediately find some kind of task to do which takes my thoughts elsewhere--something to preoccupy myself for a period. This often breaks the cycle (although sometimes this strategy fails). But most importantly, for me, I turn my worries over to my Lord Jesus. Faith and making deliberate mental decisions to turn from worry is what gets me through.

I have to say, I have had many medical problems, even now a recent test indicates 28 more times inflammation in my body then what should be. I have worried from time to time, but I can honestly say, nothing compares to when I first diagnosed with cancer. It was so stressful, I just assumed I would die in a matter of months. That was 4 years ago.

Uterine cancer, when caught early is a very survivable cancer. Many women go on to live long lives, and increasingly, cancer no longer represents an automatic death sentence. I hope Sue is reading this today, as she recently posted, and has the same dilemma.

You will be in my prayers, and I imagine you should get the results soon. Hope and believe for the best--doing so gives you strength. Wink

And know we are here for you. Keep us posted on what happens.

Rhonda
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Diagnosed Sept. 2005
Stage III-C Endometrial Adenocarcinoma
Grade 2

kumar · Regular Joined: 17 Jul 2009 Posts: 19

Lets Pray To God Jesus Toghther for our loved ones.

Thanks Kumar

Clare30 · New User Joined: 11 Oct 2009 Posts: 6

Thank you all for your replies to my post. I am having a better day today (less tears), and trying not to think about what the biopsy is going to come back with. Yet, it's always at the back of my mind all throughout the day.

Thank you, Rhonda, Pixie & Kumar for your posts. Rhonda, after reading all your posts, and reading about all you've been through, you are truly an amazing woman and an inspiration. I hope to gain as much inner strength and a positive outlook as you have. Your strength has gotten you through so much.

I will definitely keep you posted when I get the biopsy results. I'm hoping I will hear something tomorrow, since it will be a week on Tuesday since I had it done. If the doc doesn't have some results for me by tomorrow, I think I'll pass out. It's ironic..as badly as I want to get some results, a major part of me doesn't want to know what they say.

I will post back when I hear anything. Thank you all again. I was blessed by God when I found this website.

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