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Ok-
I recieved a text message on my phone from this guy. He wanted to catch up online, So to do it safely, i opened another account (with help of course- hopeless), so I could easily ban or delete this acount, if i needed to. Plus would also keep our regular e-mail and address secure.
We started talking, he he start hitting onto me- he hadn't changed, a real ladies man. But being older and more mature, It has become more sleezy.
Matt wasn't happy with this decsion to talk with him, matt felt i should have just personally e-mails all he girls on this guys myspace. I couldn't do that, how awful to find out that way...
We got talking about my girlfriend and his friend and whats been happening the last few years. Then about that night. He rembered.....Anyway long story short. I told him. With some insults, some hard truths, some mean and awful words. He says- "nope, you have the wrong person, mate." I explain to him, that it must be a shock- and why i wanted him to know, and how I know 100% it was him. How i wasn't placing any blame- but how it had Caused my cevical Cancer, and how dangerous it is for a women to contract...
Well, like i said abusive and extream words later. I siad For him to get checked, if not for me- then himself, and every other female out there. He told me he is clean...( how can this be?????) He said he had a full check up before he had a serious relationship with a girl, and was cleared, that was a few years ago....
well, what can i say? Just that I had it, got from him 10 years ago, and to keep checking and keep safe....
 - definatly a dark place right now. Would I have done it again- sure. Even if it is just a seed in his mind, or makes him think about it, I would have saved someone, well, maybe.
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| Posted: Fri Mar 21, 2008 4:15 pm Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- |
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Matt came to me and held me and let me cry my eyes out, He asked did I find closeure?. I think I did. Even if it didn't turn out the way I had hoped it would.. But what was I expectiong???? A thank you? A i'm so sorry? A little aknowledge for what had happen back then???
He did know what happened was wrong, and said sorry to that. But that was as close to a sensitive persore he could get.
Anyway.
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| Posted: Wed Mar 26, 2008 9:43 am Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- |
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OMG- (oh, my, God!)
What is wrong with me lately???? Must be an extrao does og hirmaones.
I was sound asleep- for once. Went to bed supper early- was tired, back acheing- the works. Maybe more mentally tired.
woke now 1.30Am crying. You know those unattractive, sobbing your eyes out. The ones when No movie would do. The red nosed, messey loud crying. Well I was doing that.... total mess. My dream was so real- I have such realistic dreams sometimes. Normally when on meds for back - or alot of stress...
So of course what do you do at this hour... Write here. Don't think I'll put up here- only because i'll be a mes again (Family- can't live without them...can't choose them...Can't live with them.)
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| Posted: Sat Mar 29, 2008 10:16 pm Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- |
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^^ what type of drugs was she on ^^ i want some  hehehe
Well had a Gormett (inside bbq/grill/ entertainment eating) You sit this thing in the middle of the table and everyone cooks their own bits and pieces. Weather chicken, meat, eggs, sausage, vegies , garlic bread, prawns...etc. Everone has their own little area, and grill stations.
Anyway Mum, Dad, Jen (foster girl) and us three. Had a great night. Wine, food, great talk, and Hunter entertaining us all.
Today- Took Hunter to the park, there is a little childrens bike park area. It has tracks of peebles and dirt, and smoothe roads. It has road signs and little speed bumps. Hunter looked adorable, chasing the little girls.
He has a blue motorbike (look alike) that he pushes flat out then lifts his legs and glides, like a real motor bike. He loves this to death...I'm not looking forward to when it dies...
Hunter is also teething again, red cheek, and very irritable. When do they stop teething?????? Apparently these are ment to be two year old molers... He has alot of trouble, as he has cross cut all teeth. This tooth coming up is his 1st year one- trying to push in between other teeth....
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| Posted: Mon Mar 31, 2008 3:55 am Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- |
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Had a great day today. Droped Hunter off at nanny's and did the shopping. Was sooo good. Hunter is pretty good when down the street. but still it's hard to do grocerys, by half way he is ready to go. So today i got to look at products, read a lable, remember my list.... And was happy to waiting at a register, reading a mag.
Though this is not good on the wallet. Came home with more than one impluse buy.
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| Posted: Fri Apr 04, 2008 6:17 pm Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- |
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Had a shit day yesterday.
Had 4, yes 4! - full body massages IN A ROW! (thats 4 and a half hours straight, of hard physical labour, never mind the back.
I kind of cracked. My job-share college, offered to come in and do one- I jumped at the chance. Th Boss wasn't happy about it. But it was that or I'd have to rebook them...Anyway. As T (wont say full name) was doing my 3rd massage, (i was ment to have a break before the next one) The boss booked in some waxing with me- which was ok. But as the beauty rooms are 3x3 it's tiny and small, with a big beauty bed in each room (2 of them). They have a sliding door in the middle to seperate them. The rooms are tiled, so we don't usueally like to work the two rooms as the sound travells really bad.
Well the waxer I had, knew we had to be quite, due to massage- the only way I would do her waxing.. But lets just say, here 1 year old didn't. She screemed the place down for 8 min... That loud that at the front of the Salon- ummm. 25 metres away, Could hear...
So do the next Massage and thats when the Jack Hammering nextdoor starts...  So at the end of the massge I offer a free complementry service- my ladie has to go, in a hurry to App. so I give her a Gift voucher to come back- tiny free, cost nothing gift voucher- but you guessed it, the boss had a massive heart attack and hit the roof about it....
Then my fourth massage didn't show. I rang her mobile and left a message. The go to have lunch 3.45. The boss comes charging out back and says "what are you doing" me:having something to eat- (had heat pack on back- it was killing me) boss: well there is a eyebrow wax down the front waiting for you. (a walkin) me: the look- of i don't give a flying shit... so off i go to do it. The boss says after- you need a holiday.. me : like you really think????? (been asking for months)
so at 4.30 I had nothing in, no one waiting - i say to the boss. Well, I'm off to lunch- see you next week. And walked out. 
**Then I came home to hear that the Women I told you back a few weeks ago- who Had cevical cancer has been given a week to live- they opened her up and re sewed her. She's in alot of pain.
**The i head out to my parents house to have a spa- and it's been set at 20'C (bloody freezing- since the wind out side is 7'C... brrrrrr) I come home had a fight with Matt- My fault.
He has his cousin coming over tomorrow night- (Tonight- Sat) and he is siting on computer while watching t.v. and nothing is done. So I start to moan and groan and bitch and get on "my high and mighty".
We get pretty heated and then He starts to "Wrestle" me... So i kick arse. hehehe BUT i popped a vein in my knee, and hurt my back... So i put heat on both- Now my knee is like a ballon, and black. ouch!.
(NOTE: You DON'T put heat on veins or brusing!!! )- like Duh 
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| Posted: Fri Apr 04, 2008 6:19 pm Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- |
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In my defense- it was sore and was hurting really bad- didn't realise a busted vein till after. (varicose- grape like)
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| Posted: Sun Apr 20, 2008 8:02 am Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- |
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hi everyone- sorry still kicking- just have alot going on.
(news about M.. Still holding on, Drugged out, asleep/unconsious/not there...)
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Ok- All- I'll be doing some long posts tonight and over this week. Getting myself organinsed to be a better Admin- pppfffft. lol
See you all soon
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| Posted: Fri May 23, 2008 6:22 pm Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- |
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Ok well, Long story short- LIFE
Life has had me busy, and not an excuse i know, but it has.
Work has been all over the place. Alot of meetings and Training too. Hunter has been, yep, you guessed it- sick. Tonsilitis and every bug under the sun.
I've been slack on here, I know. And thanks for the PM's telling me about some Members and advice etc.
It's fantastic to see Angie, and Jen are doing great. All going ok for them. Pjb, good as always, fighting the cause for the women on +5 - 5
Jim- always a kind soul- Checking up on me, giving me space and letting me know he's there. Thanks. (kisses)
I may not be here as often- but I will be better at checking on things.
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| Posted: Sun May 25, 2008 6:47 pm Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- |
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I'm pretty sure I'm going to lose my job. Hunter is sick again with a viral. I have had many days off due to him sick or Dr app. etc....I think the bosses are sick of it all- Well SO AM I !!!!
I live with the no sleep, the crying the pain, the whinge the, the "something new- every week". ME- I live with it. Not for a few hours, a day. but LIVE with it every day for 2 years. Hunter getting every viral-bug- or sniffle under the sun.
I can't help if i need days off- I'm trying, really I am. I would much rather be at work, then at home with a 2 year old crying and in pain. Really.
I need to work- If i didn't then finanially it would be harder than it is- but also for some sanity. I need that day away from home, to feel sane and loving when i get home- to appriate what i have at home. The smile and "loves you" when i walk in the door. It's not like i do alot of hours. Only 3 days a week. and 7-9 hours.
Needed to vent a little.
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| Posted: Wed May 28, 2008 3:42 am Post subject: Re: In the Day of an Inica- |
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Ok, after making myself sick with worry- i rang my boss- bosses wife, and had a big chat.
They know that Hunter comes first in my life, and he is my first concern and worry. She has talked to me over everything and told me not to worry, just make sure he is well.
And he is yayaya!.  Little sore throat, but happy.
I worked today. Had one client in. They are so sweet, and thought, if i wasn't in on the tuesday- then i wouldn't be in for the week. So have rebooked till next week.- Sweet clients.
* Tonight, I'm going to have coffee with a fairly new friend. I meet her around 6 months ago- she was a client and was telling me how hard it was finding friends after a move. She has two beautiful boys. One the age of Hunter- the other 6months younger.
Ever meet a person and within a second, felt like you've known them forever???. She's like that. I feel comfortable with her, at ease and quite open to talk about anything. This weekend she is moving To a house around the corner from mine. I'm looking forward to it. Coffee, chats, children playing, A little girlfriend time. Most of my Friends have moved away, or don't have any children. So it's going to be great.
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Ok, I Have just found my Sister. She is sooo like me, in a good way 
i had a great time- and could have talked all night. I see a great friendship/sisterhood in the very near future.
We talked about our fears, our hopes, our future, and about pulling our finger out of our butts and doing something for us. She's honest, she's smart, and so loving towards her beautiful Little boys.
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