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petrified
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 Posted: Thu May 03, 2007 4:57 am Post subject: i just want to cry |
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[color=darkred]Hi,
I'm 23 years old, engaged and a mum of a 2yr old boy - living in England.
Last week i was diagnosed with NHL (indolent - Watch and wait)
All i want to do is cry -
I told my fiance on friday night - he didn't really say much and is acting like nothing has changed.
I wasn't even going to tell him - i didn't want anyone to know really, but i had gulped down a bottle of wine to myself and i just blurted it out - then i cried - all night and havn't really stopped (i cry in secret because he's so busy with his work and doesn't need my problems ontop of that. and i dont want my son to pick up on it either)
I hate the idea of just having to wait for this thing to start - Doctor said it could be anytime between now the next 50 years.
I dont see the point of anything anymore -
Thanks for reading[/color]
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stryped
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| Posted: Thu May 03, 2007 7:43 am Post subject: Re: i just want to cry |
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[quote="petrified"][color=darkred]Hi,
I'm 23 years old, engaged and a mum of a 2yr old boy - living in England.
Last week i was diagnosed with NHL (indolent - Watch and wait)
All i want to do is cry -
I told my fiance on friday night - he didn't really say much and is acting like nothing has changed.
I wasn't even going to tell him - i didn't want anyone to know really, but i had gulped down a bottle of wine to myself and i just blurted it out - then i cried - all night and havn't really stopped (i cry in secret because he's so busy with his work and doesn't need my problems ontop of that. and i dont want my son to pick up on it either)
I hate the idea of just having to wait for this thing to start - Doctor said it could be anytime between now the next 50 years.
I dont see the point of anything anymore -
Thanks for reading[/color]
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I am so sorry. I will pray for you if you like.
How did they diagnose you? Did you have any symtoms?
You mean it may not start for 50 years? |
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petrified
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| Posted: Thu May 03, 2007 8:47 am Post subject: Re: i just want to cry |
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Hi,
Yes i've had symptoms for over 2 years - i'm constantly tired, and my glands (Lymph nodes) swell and go down systomatically, and awfull night sweats - i had seen various doctors none of which could give a proper diagnosis due to the fact that my glands kept going back down whereas usually they stay swollen, then turn malignant (or so i am told).
My doctor has said that i have indolent n.h.l and it may well stay that way for the rest of my life but it could also flare up at any time (that is what scares me the most). So i just have to wait. It's hard coming to terms with it - i cant face telling anyone else- thats why i'm here really. |
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stryped
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| Posted: Thu May 03, 2007 9:05 am Post subject: Re: i just want to cry |
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[quote="petrified"]Hi,
Yes i've had symptoms for over 2 years - i'm constantly tired, and my glands (Lymph nodes) swell and go down systomatically, and awfull night sweats - i had seen various doctors none of which could give a proper diagnosis due to the fact that my glands kept going back down whereas usually they stay swollen, then turn malignant (or so i am told).
My doctor has said that i have indolent n.h.l and it may well stay that way for the rest of my life but it could also flare up at any time (that is what scares me the most). So i just have to wait. It's hard coming to terms with it - i cant face telling anyone else- thats why i'm here really.[/quote]
How did they diagnose you? Did they do a biopsy? |
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petrified
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| Posted: Fri May 04, 2007 2:16 am Post subject: Re: i just want to cry |
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Yes i had a sample taken from my armpit about a month ago and they came back last week with the bad news. They took lots of blood as well to check for the right levels or something?? I stopped listening after a while - must've been the shock of somebody actually taking me seriously at last.
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petrified
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| Posted: Fri May 04, 2007 3:39 am Post subject: Re: i just want to cry |
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Thank-you Revived -
I've just spent the last hour reading about the chemtrails and so much more. As for the above article in relation to what i have - it makes so much sense - in so many ways. I've known people who've had chemo and radiation and allways vowed i would never have it - no matter what!!
Where do you find all this info?
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stryped
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| Posted: Fri May 04, 2007 6:41 am Post subject: Re: i just want to cry |
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How long did your lymph nodes stay enlarged? They would always go back down?
I have had intermittent fevers for 3 years and they cant figure out what is wrong. I have had numberous ct scans all negative. Had a negative gallium scan. Before the fevers I had a lymph node swell up in my armpit but it went back down.
Were your blood tests normal? |
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petrified
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| Posted: Sat May 05, 2007 1:12 pm Post subject: verified |
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Revived - I saved the last post - only just logged on today so didnt have a chance to save the others -
Whats wrong with these people? Whats the point of deleting it? The world is full of varying opinions - why suffocate that or try and block it out? Those posts gave me hope within my soul and opened my mind and eyes.
Damn i'm angry.
Ban me if you like
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brainman
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| Posted: Sun May 06, 2007 1:04 am Post subject: Re: i just want to cry |
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Petrified, I will take full responsibility for deleting Revived's posts because, as he/she says he/she was spamming the forum. In two days, Revived has posted the same message over 25 times. I did leave one of the original posts in the Complimentary and Alternative Medicine forum where it belongs. I did not mean to deprive you personally of any useful information. I am just doing my job as moderator and making sure that this forum is not being used for Spamming. I have already reported this issue to Dr. Lee and Dr. Leo for their review. However, feel free to email them or send them a PM if you are still concerned about my actions. I assure you that you are in no danger of being banned just because you are angry with me because of my actions.
Thank you for your understanding and cooperation.
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