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priscilla
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 Posted: Thu Apr 12, 2007 2:46 pm Post subject: I just lost my dad to small cell lung cancer |
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| I just lost my dad to small cell lung cancer on the 17th of March this year and am having such a hard time dealing with it. I never imagined that losing him would hurts so much. I can't believe that my body physcially hurts! I knew that I would be heartbroken but never imagined that my chest would feel as though I have been shot and that someone was standing on it.... or that I would have such a hard time breathing. I have asthma and I know that anxiety makes it worse but I never imagined it would be like this. I cry all of the time. I can't concentrate at work. My children are not getting the attention that they deserve. My appearance is clean but that is about it. I never put on makeup anymore...I feel like crap! I hurt all over and all I do is cry. When will it get better? Will it ever get better? I feel like I am dying as well. I know that he is no longer suffering and I believe that he is in a far better place but none of that helps the hurt that I am feeling. I just feel like I am going to throw up all of the time. Am I losing my mind? Someone please help me. |
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bkerber1
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Location: Lakeland, Florida
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| Posted: Thu Apr 12, 2007 3:51 pm Post subject: Re: I just lost my dad to small cell lung cancer |
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| Pricilla Im so sorry about your dadI think we all grieve differently. Its been almost a year since my mom and dad died and I have just gotten to the point that I dont cry every day. Please see a grief counselor with hospice or some other professional if it is affecting you to the point you cant function. I have 4 brothers and sisters and if it hadnt been for them I dont know what I would have done. I hope you have support as well because to me nobody new how I was feeling except them. Take care |
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priscilla
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| Posted: Fri Apr 13, 2007 4:27 pm Post subject: Re: I just lost my dad to small cell lung cancer |
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| Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate you taking the time just to say them. I am doing a little better today and have scheduled an appointment with my PCP. Until someone loses a loved one to cancer, they can only imagine the pain and the anguish. Thanks again for your kindness. |
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DeeVQ
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| Posted: Thu Aug 09, 2007 9:48 am Post subject: How are you doing? |
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Hi Priscilla,
I have only started coming onto this site the last week or so as my own father was diagnosed with lung cancer 4 weeks ago. I just want to say how terribly sorry I am about your fathers passing. There is nothing I can say to ease your pain and I wont ramble on about how time heals etc etc. I just want you to know that I cant even contemplate how I am going to feel when my Dad leaves me. Its bad enough knowing whats ahead but the thought of it is too much to handle. So I cant imagine how you must feel now that time has come. I dont think we are ever ready to lose our Daddys are we? Even though I am an intelligent woman, I never thought about my Dad not being there, its like I thought he was invincible. Silly I know, but it just never crossed my mind or maybe I just didnt want to think about it. Anyway, I just wanted to say my thoughts and prayers are with you and if you are ever having a bad day and need someone to talk to then you can email me and I will email back as soon as I can. Im in Ireland though so im not sure how many hours ahead I am from you, where you are, but if I dont reply for a day or two it must be the weekend and I only have access to this site when I am in work from mon to fri. Mind yourself Priscilla and know that I am thinking of you.
God Bless,
Dawn
PS; do not worry about your children, when they are older they will understand your anguish. For now, Just tell them you love them. Let people worry about you and not vice versa. I hope you have support from family and friends x |
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Elizabeth76
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| Posted: Wed Aug 15, 2007 7:54 pm Post subject: Re: I just lost my dad to small cell lung cancer |
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Priscilla,
I just read your post, and I am so sorry for your heartache. I know the loss you are experiencing. My father died only 4 days before yours. My dad's funeral was the day your dad passed. It was also his birthday.
The entire process was so hard. I find myself crying now and then for all different reasons. It can be because I am in shock all over again that he is not around. Or because of how hard it was to watch him go from a strong healthy independant man, to a weak, skinny, totally dependant man. I sometimes cannot believe this was his feit or that my dad is gone.
I find myself dreaming alot latley about him when he was healthy and his laugh.. it is bittersweet, because I feel like I got to see him, but then I wake up and miss him so much more.
I hope you are doing much better.
Blessings |
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