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Trigggl
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 Posted: Wed Nov 07, 2007 9:17 am Post subject: Re: November 7, 2007... it has now been 15 years... my story |
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Can you smoke a cigar for me? I want one, but don't the bad breath or to stink up the house.
They say that alcohol kills brain cells, does is kill tumor cells as well?
I have been tempted to do what I want to do after surgery and during chemo. I was thinking about starting to smoke cigars again, but like I said I don't want the stink on me, my clothes or my house. I don't know why I like the smell of cigars when smoking it, but not any other time.
Also, I had to schedule my beer drinking according to my chemo treatments. I could only have a drink like once every two or three weeks. One, I needed to be strong for the treatmens and two, alcohol intensified the affects of the chemo.
I don't have a problem with anyone who's able to live their life in spite of being a survivor. You didn't do anything to deserve the tumor, so you're not obligated to anyone to alter the way you live your life or to give them your years. I do appreciate the sentiment, though.
I've been to a funeral of an 8 year old girl that died of a brain tumor. She was on various treatments from the time she was 1. She was the sweetest girl you would ever know and happy. She lived twice as long as the doctors predicted. Eventually, the parents knew the time had come, she was ready (knowing what it meant) and they took her off treatment so she could grow some hair back in the time she had left. Even in passing she was happy and encouraged her parents. She wanted her funeral to be a happy time because she knew she was going to heaven. I almost envy her. After I had my surgery and before she passed I was able to show her my scar and tell her that she was my hero. I'm glad I knew her, even if it was from a distance. I never could have related to her if I hadn't come down with a similar illness. That's a girl who deserved more time.
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ksplat
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Joined: 26 Apr 2007
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Location: Brisbane, Australia
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| Posted: Thu Nov 08, 2007 1:50 am Post subject: November 7, 2007... it has now been 15 years... my story |
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Dear Jim
Congratulations on reaching another milestone! I'm celebrating with you too. Fantastic news. It's great to hear your positive story & I'm sure other members on this forum will be feeling elated for you too.
I can relate to your "survivor's guilt" too. I survived a near fatal illness in 2005 & here I am today writing this post & thanking our God for his blessings, but am also torn up inside with my Bro-Mark - suffering his GBMIV with courage & tenacity, but fighting an uphill battle!
We ask ourselves why? The answer is why not?!!!
May God continue to bless you Jim on your journey & in everything you do for us on this forum!
Cheers, Aussie Angie.
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Treatment: Radiotherapy, Temodal, Gliadel Wafers, Dexamethasone, Keppra, Dilantin, Clexane
Went to our Heavenly Father after a 19mth battle,, 47 years young.
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http://cancerforums.net/viewtopic.php?p=19227
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jenugl
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Joined: 24 Sep 2006
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Location: Cairns, Queensland, Australia
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| Posted: Thu Nov 08, 2007 8:13 pm Post subject: Re: November 7, 2007... it has now been 15 years... my story |
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Hey Jim.... Congratulations....  Gives alot of people hope when they can't find any. Survivors guilt - that's what makes you a truly wonderful human being. But don't feel bad that you are living - make the most of it, someone up there doesn't want you yet and hopefully they will leave you down here for a long time to come. I think they realise what a good job you are doing down here.  Party hard and keep partying, lifes a truly most enjoyable ride (most of the time). It is very unfair that anyone has to get sick, let alone young people, and we wouldn't be human if it didn't affect us. We are allowed to be affected but not consumed. Keep going strong, keep doing the things you do so well and thankyou again for everthing you do for all of us (sufferers / survivors and carers). Sending congratulatory (is that a word  ) hugs across the seas. Love to all. Jen. |
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brainman
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Location: Tennessee
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| Posted: Thu Nov 08, 2007 8:59 pm Post subject: Re: November 7, 2007... it has now been 15 years... my story |
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[quote="jenugl"]someone up there doesn't want you yet and hopefully they will leave you down here for a long time to come[/quote]
That is what I am afraid of, Jen  . Thanks for the wonderful support you are to me.
I am locking this topic so that it will go from the top of the Brain Cancer Forum. It will still be listed in my signature block and when another mile stone happens, I will start a My Story Part 2  . Do not worry. I am not going anywhere, nor do I have a bad premonition about my future. I am just concerned about my story always being at the top of the list. I was using this as my personal blog, but that is unfair to others who need our attention.
Thanks to all of you who have posted replies to this topic over the last two years.
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Site Administrator and long-term cancer survivor
1992 Astrocytoma grade 2, left motor strip
2005 Recurrence this time said to be an Oligodendoglioma grade 3, same location.
My Story Part 1: http://cancerforums.net/viewtopic.php?p=7350
My Story Part 2: http://cancerforums.net/viewtopic.php?t=8029
Blog http://jimhawkinsport.blogspot.com/ |
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