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    Dear cancer...You suck...that is all

    Ever been so tired down to your very bones?! That's where I am right now and this stupid insomnia is only making it harder. I hope that I don't ramble on too much, but I wanted to purge so that maybe, just maybe my brain will shut off. I was told I needed to find a support group but for some reason I'm not wanting to go out and do that just yet. i thought since I'm better at writing my words/feelings than actually verbalizing them I could still connect with others who get where I'm coming from.
    I am the primary care giver to my mom (70) who has stage 4 metastatic colon cancer that has spread to her liver, which has 30-40 mets (stupid terminology I would've been happier not knowing in my life) on it and she has decided against treatment because she wants quality rather than quantity time

    As I read that I'm struck with the thought of
    whatever happened to introducing yourself by saying, I'm an only child to my loving mom, wife to an awesome man, mom to some really great kids and a pretty successful self employed house cleaner with 16+ clients. Cancer really does invade every facet of your life doesn't it?!
    It's been a rough road these last few months...my gramma (my mom's mom) died in October just shy of her 105th birthday, my mom fell and broke her hip while crossing a slippery street in town, a surgery to repair said hip, a diagnosis of AFib which resulted in blood thinners and very frequent blood work to make sure her INR was acceptable for her condition and she had to give up her freedom and move in with us.

    Fast forward to December when she had what we thought was the flu but it kept coming and going. I finally convinced her to go to the ER on Boxing Day because I felt deep down there was something very wrong. I was prepared to hear she had a blockage (cancer didn't enter my mind at this point) sadly that was only part of the reality.
    The doc ran some blood work and it came back with something that suggested gallbladder issues. He ordered an ultrasound, which thankfully we got in the next day. We were then sent back to ER to get those results. It showed the mets and the doctor said it was a secondary site so he ordered a CT scan to get the full picture. Again we got in the next day, sent back to ER where we were given the whole story...the blockage, the mets, the finality of it and the lack of cure. I was devastated. We were set up with a colonoscopy ASAP and then it felt like time stood still. Up until then it seemed everything was flying at us full speed and then nothing. No actual diagnosis, no prognosis, we felt so frustrated that we didn't have all the answers. We wanted answers but we trusted God and were filled with peace about everything, including quitting all of my clients so that in the end I would have no regrets.
    We finally got the colonoscopy results back and she was fully obstructed and needed surgery ASAP. Unfortunately the blood thinners prevented anything from happening till Thursday.
    That afternoon she went downhill very quickly...her heart rate was anywhere from 98-180, she was throwing up, lots of pain and just out of it. They were all concerned about whether or not she would make it through surgery. We needed to discuss DNRs and her wishes, which is a horrible thing to think about never mind having to live it. We said our goodbyes and left her in the OR not knowing if I would see her again. I didn't know what to pray for because watching my mom suffer like that was horrible but it was my youngest daughter's 10th birthday and that would be horrible for her.
    God was watching over her and despite the fact that after surgery they were having a hard time stabilizing her because of a heart rate that was all over and barely a pressure, the surgery was successful. I had my friends bring the kids in because I didn't want them to have regrets but they didn't make it before she went for surgery which was a God thing as well. My youngest had a difficult time seeing gramma with an NG tube, two arms with IVs, heart monitors beeping and everything else going on, so had she been there before surgery I'm sure that would've traumatized her. I will never forget the look of pure amazed joy when my mom saw me beside her bed in the ICU, she even tried to push herself up so she could kiss me and grab onto me.
    That was two weeks ago...seems hard to believe that she went from there to home in a week. She's doing pretty well. No more pain so that's such a blessing. She's cold all of the time. She's so tired which I can only assume is a combination of the trauma she sustained prior to and after her surgery and the cancer.
    I'm a details gal and would like to know what I can expect but cancer isn't predictable. The doc said 6-9 months but I think 6 months is generous...but I'm not God so we'll just have to take it as it comes and enjoying every day that he gives us to spend together.
    My mom would like to stay here as long as we can handle it. And as long as my kids are handling it ok then i want her to be able to pass away here. We've talked about so many things like funeral etc but I'm not sure you can ever prepare yourself for the loss of a loved one. My awesome husband? He in his infinite wisdom said that we needed to make a switch because if my mom were to pass away in my daughters room, she wouldn't go back in there. So mom is in our room and I've set up camp in my daughters room (she has been sharing with her younger sister since mom moved in. But the official story is that she has more room for equipment and her own bathroom.
    I'm worried most about having to watch my mother die...it's a reality that is too hard to face right now. I have my good days and bad but God is putting people in my path that help, that pray, that check up on me and he has given us a peace that surpasses all understanding. And for that I am grateful because in all of this the one constant is that He is here walking with us in the valley and holding moms hand the whole way home.
    I'm sorry this post is so long but I needed to put it out there and maybe I wouldn't feel so alone some days and maybe I can get past these feeling like I'm failing miserably...some days I think I'm losing my mind

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    Hi cjcapps,

    Welcome to our forum but so very sorry for the reason you are here. It's sounds like you have all been through an awful time in short order. Cancer is just a horrible unfair disease that wreaks havoc in it's path. I well remember the bone weary tiredness that came soon after my Dad's stage 4 lung cancer diagnosis. My faith, family and this forum is the only way I made it through. It was the saddest thing I have ever lived through. Try not to dwell on what the future will bring. Stay in today and live each day as a gift. Make the most of the time you have left with her. If you want to read a real story of hope..go to the Colon Cancer section of the forum and read Sheila's story about her amazing Mom's journey with stage 4 colon cancer. Please keep us posted on how you both are doing. We'll do our best to help you through. God Bless.

    Irish
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    He sadly lost his battle in August 2010 and we miss his smiling Irish blue eyes terribly.
    My Dad's story:
    http://www.cancerforums.net/threads/...th-how-he-died.

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    Thank you Irish
    You are so right about living in today...we are definitely trying to do that. I think some of my looking too far ahead has to do with the fact that my mom and I haven't always had the best relationship...she had her issues and I had mine. I finally have my mom back and now faced with the impending loss I just want to make sure I don't miss any more time with her. Most days I'm good but sometimes my fears get the better of me. We are hoping that next week she will feel up to taking a day trip out to the mountains but if not we're happy to stay home and watch the food channel . I know that I would be lost without my faith, my tight little family and my church family as well. Moms strength and peace through all this serves as a reminder to me that God is walking with us. Mom is doing well. We are on our way to see if she can more staples out today. She is having a lot of drainage still from her incision so I don't think she will lose too many more. Right now the only thing to "worry" about is making sure her incision doesn't become infected...and considering where we were a month ago with her, that is a huge blessing I will gladly take.
    I will definitely check out that story you told me about as well. Have a good day and a good weekend.

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    cj- Im sorry to hear of all the stress in your life. I swear it doesnt rain anymore it pours! sounds as if your family and faith are holding you together -to me thats important as well. Its so hard being the strong one when we relied on our parents for so long.- I dont care what ones age is role reversal is just plain awfull.
    something we dont think about as we are maturing untill one day...it hits you like a punch in the gut.
    I hope they are taking care of your mom as best they can and that she is recovering from her surgery. dont worry we all vent here and your more than welcome to join in. The larger our group the more support the sronger we become
    when we have stressfull times -besides friends and family- we know our forum cares too. hang in there and hope she gets well enough to take that trip with you. If you cant make that trip maybe you can look through some pics together from a prior trip ........then watch the food channel.
    MOMS Journey
    April06- Emergencysurgery,exploratory,10units blood,largetumor and 10inches of colon removed,temp.colostomy.diagnosed stage IV colon.
    oxyplatin,5fu
    Oct06-radiation,surgery,several lymphs,cervix,1 ovary,fallopian,40% remaining colon,large tumor to adipose tissue,appendix,gallbladder removed.permant colostomy/iliostomy
    oxyplatin,transfusion.
    April 07-xeloda-overdose
    surgery-1/3liver,partial diaphra, removed clipped and questionable spots oblated.
    port-port rejection-port removed 1week.
    picc line,5fu,oxyplatin,camptosar.
    Oct-08-surgery-remaining ovary engulfed in tumor,partial bone scrape.
    transfusion central line TPN 1 month.
    oct-09-surgery tumor ,colon and jejuneum removed.
    xeloda reduced. severe dehydration,heart attack.
    april10-remission-avistan
    oct-10-erbitux,camptosar
    Jan-11-5fu
    mar-11 return to original site-oxyplatin,5fu
    Aug-11-erbitux,camptosar.
    dec-28-blood transfusion
    dec-30-back to chemo erbitux camtosar
    Jan-16 injections neulasta and aranesp
    feb16-transfusion
    feb 21-Tumor found stomach,liver, and liver "hot spots" inflamed lymph in rt ureter in kidney causing obstruction-surgery schedualed Mar 16.
    march 16/12-no more kidney obstruction not lymph ...dehydration is causing blockage, two litters blood for anemia, stomach liver tumor small-med,abalation, 1 hidden tumor deep in muscle mass on side flank(hid from scans) -gone!
    june/15/12-blood transfusion
    starting a regimine of celebrex
    aug/16/12-blood transfusion
    aug/30-12 discontinued celebrex -failure one kidney. needed to see urologist
    sept/10-12-good urologist report one kidney functioning well for now.
    oct/23/12-chemo pill Stivarga(regorafenib)
    Nov/22/12-blood transfusion
    dec/18/12-blood transfusion chemo pill dosage cut back to 1 pill.
    Feb/21/13 neulasta injection
    Feb/22/13-blood transfusion. still taking stivarga.
    mar/20/13-arenespt injection rehydration and magnesium IV
    mar/21/13-acute renal failure-kidney infection
    april/1/13.-recovery from 4 day coma infection cleared/4 units blood/ off stivarga/starting rehab therapy,
    swollen hand no apparent reason black spots in vision off and on. both cleared up.
    may/22/13-home oxycodone for pain shoulder neck arm
    june/1/13 pain subsided off oxy onto aleve
    june/09/13-pain back off aleve on vicodin
    june 10/13-cancer in back/neck- starting radiation for arm neck and shoulder pain.
    june24/13-last day of radiation-on steroids
    july1/13-swollen legs and feet-lasix off steroids still on vicodin and xanax
    july 23/13 vicodin cut in half blood transfusion.
    sept/6/13-off all pain meds since late aug
    scan results fracture in spine mid back
    sept/12/13-spine healing on its own,weaning off steroids, no visible tumors.
    nov/7/13-edema both legs and one arm on lasix since oct.
    nov/21/13- leg edema subsiding still alot in one arm- she is talking but keeps her eyes closed. achy but no major pain. nurse and aide to visit once a week schedualed. having trouble standing.
    nov/24/13-sadly but peacefully moms cancer journey is at an end, she will start her new spiritual journey together hand in hand with dad.

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    Thanks Sheila
    It's true the role reversal sucks...though I have been "taking care" of her since I was young but that was then and this is now. She spent 14 years of having surgeries to did out why she couldn't get pregnant and being on an adoption waiting list. Add to that a marriage that was crumbling which resulted in him having an affair and marrying her who could have a baby. I spent a lot of my teen years being resentful for not having a childhood, but as I got older I understood that she did the best she could at the time and I'm sure that she had depression, which of course wasn't treated back then or even acknowledged, so they medicated her in other ways. Anyways I let that go a long time ago and I'm glad that we have the relationship that we do now. There's so many people that don't understand and are like wow that's a lot of work etc, but I feel like it's the least I could do cuz she loved me no matter what when lots of people didn't. I'm glad I'm able to do this for her, plus my kids see how important family is and how quickly things change.
    You're so right...it does pour Which is evident because here I sit in the ER with my son, who has had severe pain in his ear since 3am. I was hoping it would go away but not so much. I haven't seen him in this much pain since he spiral fractured his tibia two years ago. I know that it's fairly minor in the grand scheme of things but I'm just emotionally spent and physically exhausted because I can't sleep at night. I know that God is here and I try to focus on Him but things keep getting thrown in the way and sometimes it's hard to see through the veil of tears. It's funny as I write that it's like really...crying over this? Sounds rather minute compared to everything else going on, but today I'm just tired of being the strong one.
    So I packed up 5 of the kids and headed into town. Got ryan into the ER and then took the kids over to church where I needed to be to be able to make an announcement for our youth group, left the kids there and now I sit at the hospital while ryan is finally sleeping after they h
    gave him some pain relievers. Soon I'll head back to pick up the other kids and lucky for them they get to sit here and wait too. These are the days I wish I didn't live 20 min out of town or that gas wasn't as high as it is. With me not working anymore it's a balancing act to stay afloat and dig out from getting behind.
    I'm sorry there are so many stories on here that rip your heart out and punch you in the gut (yours included) that are far worse than what today has brought.
    Maybe I'm whining about all these trivial things because I refuse to complain about my moms condition. I will not look at it like it's a burden for me to bear or like I'm being put out. That and I think it makes me feel "normal" again cuz things aren't ever going to be normal again...or at least not the normal I've known. It's hard too cuz people don't know what to say and feel like they have to say something so they either avoid you or say the dumbest things. Or the people that take on tasks that are mine because they are trying to make it easier on me. If I want you to make it easier than I'll ask otherwise let me have something that doesn't revolve around my mother dying from cancer.
    Well I think that's enough spewing for now...I feel horrible when I do cuz I sound like such an angry person but I'm really not I just hate this situation. Though I guess better to unleash it here rather than on say or do something I'll regret or can't take back
    This will get better

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    well ya know -for one doesnt matter how minor it apprears what one vents about- because in fact once we are weakend by the first big blow and it continues to hit us -sometimes that last little thing(which we normally would blow off as oh well) we crash with it as if it was the heaviest burden.
    It all adds up and its all stress..we just got to keep picking ourselves up. even if its ever so slowly and keep trudging up the hill looking forward to any little geeze give us a break!
    people I use to get upset with the ones that say the dumbest things -but really? we need to give them credit for making the approach effort and caring.
    The dumber the comment the harder it was for them to approach- look at it that way and it will make you appreciate and smile anyway. hope your sons feeling better and sounds like you need a good nights sleep hang in there and keep us posted.
    MOMS Journey
    April06- Emergencysurgery,exploratory,10units blood,largetumor and 10inches of colon removed,temp.colostomy.diagnosed stage IV colon.
    oxyplatin,5fu
    Oct06-radiation,surgery,several lymphs,cervix,1 ovary,fallopian,40% remaining colon,large tumor to adipose tissue,appendix,gallbladder removed.permant colostomy/iliostomy
    oxyplatin,transfusion.
    April 07-xeloda-overdose
    surgery-1/3liver,partial diaphra, removed clipped and questionable spots oblated.
    port-port rejection-port removed 1week.
    picc line,5fu,oxyplatin,camptosar.
    Oct-08-surgery-remaining ovary engulfed in tumor,partial bone scrape.
    transfusion central line TPN 1 month.
    oct-09-surgery tumor ,colon and jejuneum removed.
    xeloda reduced. severe dehydration,heart attack.
    april10-remission-avistan
    oct-10-erbitux,camptosar
    Jan-11-5fu
    mar-11 return to original site-oxyplatin,5fu
    Aug-11-erbitux,camptosar.
    dec-28-blood transfusion
    dec-30-back to chemo erbitux camtosar
    Jan-16 injections neulasta and aranesp
    feb16-transfusion
    feb 21-Tumor found stomach,liver, and liver "hot spots" inflamed lymph in rt ureter in kidney causing obstruction-surgery schedualed Mar 16.
    march 16/12-no more kidney obstruction not lymph ...dehydration is causing blockage, two litters blood for anemia, stomach liver tumor small-med,abalation, 1 hidden tumor deep in muscle mass on side flank(hid from scans) -gone!
    june/15/12-blood transfusion
    starting a regimine of celebrex
    aug/16/12-blood transfusion
    aug/30-12 discontinued celebrex -failure one kidney. needed to see urologist
    sept/10-12-good urologist report one kidney functioning well for now.
    oct/23/12-chemo pill Stivarga(regorafenib)
    Nov/22/12-blood transfusion
    dec/18/12-blood transfusion chemo pill dosage cut back to 1 pill.
    Feb/21/13 neulasta injection
    Feb/22/13-blood transfusion. still taking stivarga.
    mar/20/13-arenespt injection rehydration and magnesium IV
    mar/21/13-acute renal failure-kidney infection
    april/1/13.-recovery from 4 day coma infection cleared/4 units blood/ off stivarga/starting rehab therapy,
    swollen hand no apparent reason black spots in vision off and on. both cleared up.
    may/22/13-home oxycodone for pain shoulder neck arm
    june/1/13 pain subsided off oxy onto aleve
    june/09/13-pain back off aleve on vicodin
    june 10/13-cancer in back/neck- starting radiation for arm neck and shoulder pain.
    june24/13-last day of radiation-on steroids
    july1/13-swollen legs and feet-lasix off steroids still on vicodin and xanax
    july 23/13 vicodin cut in half blood transfusion.
    sept/6/13-off all pain meds since late aug
    scan results fracture in spine mid back
    sept/12/13-spine healing on its own,weaning off steroids, no visible tumors.
    nov/7/13-edema both legs and one arm on lasix since oct.
    nov/21/13- leg edema subsiding still alot in one arm- she is talking but keeps her eyes closed. achy but no major pain. nurse and aide to visit once a week schedualed. having trouble standing.
    nov/24/13-sadly but peacefully moms cancer journey is at an end, she will start her new spiritual journey together hand in hand with dad.

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    Sheila you are so right and a good perspective for me to see...cuz I never thought of it like that. Thankfully my close friends have been great but there's some people that avoid me or us altogether because they don't know what to say. I understand the lack of words...my friend was diagnosed with breast cancer and I didn't know what to say cuz I felt like it had to be eloquent. I finally realized with her tho that it didn't have to be cancer related and sometimes those were the best conversations cuz when for 2 hours you got to escape the reality. I so badly want to say I'm still me but I also know that I think things through entirely more than I need to and I can't expect everyone to figure it all out...it just hurts.
    Thankfully Ryan's problem was just an ear infection, tho they are monitoring his BP cuz it was crazy high but not unusual if you've been going through so much pain. Ha and wouldn't you know it my daughter is now saying her ear hurts. Raegyn hasn't been in as much pain so i think its more to do with her having gone swimming yesterday. We had a nice afternoon at home...I introduced my kids to 24 (that's right up their alley). Mom was good today so it was a good day. Hope you had a good day.
    Tomorrow will be an awesome day cuz my husband will be home again finally...a week doesn't seem long until you're missing someone and dealing with a plate that is piled high. I'm not complaining tho cuz this job has enabled me to be able to quit my jobs and stay with my mom, so it's been a blessing.

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    CJ- arent you fortunate to have children to distract your thoughts for brief moments and a husband you can lean on? some people are going through this alone- can you imagine? maybe the water had some bacteria in it since they both had an ear problem- share some of that plate with your husband -not too comfortable when you have to consume it all. hang in there and hope your mom has some better days to look forward to. however far a few between they may be. she has your support and Im sure thats comforting for her. keep us posted on how shes doing.
    MOMS Journey
    April06- Emergencysurgery,exploratory,10units blood,largetumor and 10inches of colon removed,temp.colostomy.diagnosed stage IV colon.
    oxyplatin,5fu
    Oct06-radiation,surgery,several lymphs,cervix,1 ovary,fallopian,40% remaining colon,large tumor to adipose tissue,appendix,gallbladder removed.permant colostomy/iliostomy
    oxyplatin,transfusion.
    April 07-xeloda-overdose
    surgery-1/3liver,partial diaphra, removed clipped and questionable spots oblated.
    port-port rejection-port removed 1week.
    picc line,5fu,oxyplatin,camptosar.
    Oct-08-surgery-remaining ovary engulfed in tumor,partial bone scrape.
    transfusion central line TPN 1 month.
    oct-09-surgery tumor ,colon and jejuneum removed.
    xeloda reduced. severe dehydration,heart attack.
    april10-remission-avistan
    oct-10-erbitux,camptosar
    Jan-11-5fu
    mar-11 return to original site-oxyplatin,5fu
    Aug-11-erbitux,camptosar.
    dec-28-blood transfusion
    dec-30-back to chemo erbitux camtosar
    Jan-16 injections neulasta and aranesp
    feb16-transfusion
    feb 21-Tumor found stomach,liver, and liver "hot spots" inflamed lymph in rt ureter in kidney causing obstruction-surgery schedualed Mar 16.
    march 16/12-no more kidney obstruction not lymph ...dehydration is causing blockage, two litters blood for anemia, stomach liver tumor small-med,abalation, 1 hidden tumor deep in muscle mass on side flank(hid from scans) -gone!
    june/15/12-blood transfusion
    starting a regimine of celebrex
    aug/16/12-blood transfusion
    aug/30-12 discontinued celebrex -failure one kidney. needed to see urologist
    sept/10-12-good urologist report one kidney functioning well for now.
    oct/23/12-chemo pill Stivarga(regorafenib)
    Nov/22/12-blood transfusion
    dec/18/12-blood transfusion chemo pill dosage cut back to 1 pill.
    Feb/21/13 neulasta injection
    Feb/22/13-blood transfusion. still taking stivarga.
    mar/20/13-arenespt injection rehydration and magnesium IV
    mar/21/13-acute renal failure-kidney infection
    april/1/13.-recovery from 4 day coma infection cleared/4 units blood/ off stivarga/starting rehab therapy,
    swollen hand no apparent reason black spots in vision off and on. both cleared up.
    may/22/13-home oxycodone for pain shoulder neck arm
    june/1/13 pain subsided off oxy onto aleve
    june/09/13-pain back off aleve on vicodin
    june 10/13-cancer in back/neck- starting radiation for arm neck and shoulder pain.
    june24/13-last day of radiation-on steroids
    july1/13-swollen legs and feet-lasix off steroids still on vicodin and xanax
    july 23/13 vicodin cut in half blood transfusion.
    sept/6/13-off all pain meds since late aug
    scan results fracture in spine mid back
    sept/12/13-spine healing on its own,weaning off steroids, no visible tumors.
    nov/7/13-edema both legs and one arm on lasix since oct.
    nov/21/13- leg edema subsiding still alot in one arm- she is talking but keeps her eyes closed. achy but no major pain. nurse and aide to visit once a week schedualed. having trouble standing.
    nov/24/13-sadly but peacefully moms cancer journey is at an end, she will start her new spiritual journey together hand in hand with dad.

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    Sheila you are so right...I couldn't imagine how hard this would be without having my kids, my husband, my friends and my mom. I am getting better but I have my days that I'm overwhelmed and I know that I have a hard time sharing the load because its my load and everyone had their own stuff to deal with..I know that's my issue not theirs and I have to work that out. Mom is doing pretty good, still no pain so that is a huge blessing and relief. Seeing her before her surgery (not knowing she needed surgery because in December it wasn't blocked) I was praying that God would just take her home because she was suffering so bad...and I didn't know how to watch that agony so the surgery was definitely a good thing. So far no pain meds but she does take a sleeping pill at night though her throat hasn't really healed yet (from the NG tube) because she has a hard time getting pills down, so we'll see if we can get her something better for her. I notice she's sleeping more often and her coloring is off (she looks more "tanned") and she doesn't have much of an appetite but she's still here and we make the most of it...even if it means I'm helping her go through 15 years of paperwork that she saved that she didn't need to lol. We're going to see if she's feeling up to watching my son play their last home game tonight. Have a good day

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    cj- some chemos give that darkened appearance on the skin- also if the liver isnt up to par or is strugging getting rid of toxins a yellowish tanish appearance will show as well. moms complexion never looks right anymore. also left her with some darker pigmentations that actually never went away Hope she is able to enjoy the game maybe if she rests up enough she might just want to do something to take her mind off things for a bit.
    MOMS Journey
    April06- Emergencysurgery,exploratory,10units blood,largetumor and 10inches of colon removed,temp.colostomy.diagnosed stage IV colon.
    oxyplatin,5fu
    Oct06-radiation,surgery,several lymphs,cervix,1 ovary,fallopian,40% remaining colon,large tumor to adipose tissue,appendix,gallbladder removed.permant colostomy/iliostomy
    oxyplatin,transfusion.
    April 07-xeloda-overdose
    surgery-1/3liver,partial diaphra, removed clipped and questionable spots oblated.
    port-port rejection-port removed 1week.
    picc line,5fu,oxyplatin,camptosar.
    Oct-08-surgery-remaining ovary engulfed in tumor,partial bone scrape.
    transfusion central line TPN 1 month.
    oct-09-surgery tumor ,colon and jejuneum removed.
    xeloda reduced. severe dehydration,heart attack.
    april10-remission-avistan
    oct-10-erbitux,camptosar
    Jan-11-5fu
    mar-11 return to original site-oxyplatin,5fu
    Aug-11-erbitux,camptosar.
    dec-28-blood transfusion
    dec-30-back to chemo erbitux camtosar
    Jan-16 injections neulasta and aranesp
    feb16-transfusion
    feb 21-Tumor found stomach,liver, and liver "hot spots" inflamed lymph in rt ureter in kidney causing obstruction-surgery schedualed Mar 16.
    march 16/12-no more kidney obstruction not lymph ...dehydration is causing blockage, two litters blood for anemia, stomach liver tumor small-med,abalation, 1 hidden tumor deep in muscle mass on side flank(hid from scans) -gone!
    june/15/12-blood transfusion
    starting a regimine of celebrex
    aug/16/12-blood transfusion
    aug/30-12 discontinued celebrex -failure one kidney. needed to see urologist
    sept/10-12-good urologist report one kidney functioning well for now.
    oct/23/12-chemo pill Stivarga(regorafenib)
    Nov/22/12-blood transfusion
    dec/18/12-blood transfusion chemo pill dosage cut back to 1 pill.
    Feb/21/13 neulasta injection
    Feb/22/13-blood transfusion. still taking stivarga.
    mar/20/13-arenespt injection rehydration and magnesium IV
    mar/21/13-acute renal failure-kidney infection
    april/1/13.-recovery from 4 day coma infection cleared/4 units blood/ off stivarga/starting rehab therapy,
    swollen hand no apparent reason black spots in vision off and on. both cleared up.
    may/22/13-home oxycodone for pain shoulder neck arm
    june/1/13 pain subsided off oxy onto aleve
    june/09/13-pain back off aleve on vicodin
    june 10/13-cancer in back/neck- starting radiation for arm neck and shoulder pain.
    june24/13-last day of radiation-on steroids
    july1/13-swollen legs and feet-lasix off steroids still on vicodin and xanax
    july 23/13 vicodin cut in half blood transfusion.
    sept/6/13-off all pain meds since late aug
    scan results fracture in spine mid back
    sept/12/13-spine healing on its own,weaning off steroids, no visible tumors.
    nov/7/13-edema both legs and one arm on lasix since oct.
    nov/21/13- leg edema subsiding still alot in one arm- she is talking but keeps her eyes closed. achy but no major pain. nurse and aide to visit once a week schedualed. having trouble standing.
    nov/24/13-sadly but peacefully moms cancer journey is at an end, she will start her new spiritual journey together hand in hand with dad.

 

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