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Thread: Cancer- the six letter word that changed my life.

  1. #171
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    Hi,
    I'm relieved!
    YOU GO GIRL!!!
    ZIM

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    Just finished filing my last joint tax, very unreal. Itís interesting the things that trigger a path down memory lane, which end up with me standing in the middle of the house crying why why. Why did you have to go? Maybe itís seeing his wallet and counting the last dollars he had kept in it. Idk. Today is a bad day. Oh maybe itís also the anxiety of seeing his parents end of the month. Iím beginning to think that although we may get better with dealing with the grief that person will always be a loss and youíre kind of never get over losing them. Or never stop crying for them. Idk. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow is GI day, hoping for lots of productivity

  3. #173
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    Hi Leah,
    SOooooo...How did the test go? Some Do Overs?

    And, how did the visit with John's parents go?

    'Thinking about you, zim

  4. #174
    Hey guys,

    I have not done the exam yet, because I had some issues with applying for it and needed to get some paperwork from my med school. This would take about 6 weeks, which is why i went to see his parents. The visit was quite emotional, and the house is full of sadness. His mom is especially hit hard with it, many times she just stares are his picture and shakes her head in disbelief. I think for my own sanity, its good that I live further away from them because it would just be misery for us all. However, I do realize that when I am with them, they talk about him just as much as I do. It was unreal sleeping in his old room with him not there and seeing pictures of him on the wall and just remembering all the times we have been there together before. It also was good in the sense, we got to get together and one thing I wanted to do was visit his mom so it felt nice to go and give them gifts like he would have and to just visit them.

    I am back home now and ready to get back into a routine, needed to get over jetlag. I wonder when is it not ok for me to write in here anymore. I do realize I only write about my struggle/my life after his passing. please let me know, i wont be offended or anything if i am supposed to shutup now. I have been there so i understand.
    Hubby with inoperable brainstem glioma. Dx- 8/30/2016. Finished radiation- 10/28/2016. started temodar 5/20/2017- didn't tolerate it. started avastin 6/24/17. Tumor growth (Glioblastoma) avastin stopped 9/22/2017. Hospice started 9/28/2017. Went to heaven- 3/4/2018

  5. #175
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    Hi Leah,

    First, you should know that it is never "NOT OK for you to post here". There will come a time when your grief will say enough, but until then you should post here when ever the mood strikes. We have members whose love ones passed away years ago that post frequently and have much to offer. You may not realize it, but you have come a long way since those early posts and I, for one, encourage you to continue to vent here.

    I'm glad that you survived the trip to John's parents. Parents take the death of a child especially hard. (I know...my son died in 2005.) BUT it is over and it will be easier the next time. That is the nature of grief.

    'Looking forward to your post on the (Dreaded) tests..Hang in!!

    respectfully, zim

 

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